Raining Day :D

first day of september.
many things happen.
last nite in audi with mye audi cpl.
play with him till 4plus bah.
dhen iie slack awhile jiu go slp le.
befor iie slp, iie sure see his pic and msg again.
and oso sure drop mye tears again.
tis iish th 2nd guy tat iie really love lots.
first was alwin. nw iish vincent. haiis.
morning 11plus wake up.
cos snow call mye phone and got taiji again x.x
jiawei ex audi cpl come kpkb her for nth.
iie dont wan say more abt audi le.
settle till 3pm dhen go out buy lunch.
and nite din eat. cos no mood to eat.
msg vincent and ask him.
we got chance to patch ma.
keep thinking abt wad he promise me.
and things has happen too fast.
we din quarrel, we everyday oso sweet sweet de.
iie treat him better dhen mye other ex.
cos iie dont wan to lose him.
but nw must let him go le.
iie try mye best to let go.
but cant. its hard to let him go.
whyiie love someone so eazy.
let go someone so hard.
everyday cry cos of him.
feel lyk cutting mye hand but iie cant.
rmb when he come find me.
and he saw mye bed got pen knife.
he ask whyiie mye bed got pen knife.
izzit wan cut mye hand or wad.
iie told him iie din cut mye hand at all.
everytime wan cut sure think of wad he told me.
he told me he scared tat iie will leave him.
and iie promise him iie wont leave him anymore.
he oso did promise say he wont leave me.
end up he oso lyk tat leave me alone.
say promise to be with me forever.
nw? cant be with him le.
say will last long till old?
nw oso cant le. haiis
jus throw me aside and crying.
emoing alone. need his hug his kiss.
but think it wont happen anymore.
iie really jus wan meet him 1 last time.
1 last kiss and 1 last hug frm him.
mye heart really really dam painfull.
feel lyk jus let a car bang and die?
or jus jump dwn? or jus cutting mye hand?
hmmms.. think those oso nt good.
will be emoing and cry cos of him bah.
hope he wont regreting on brking with me.
hope he got see mye blog and know hw iie feel nw.
everytime cry for him sure have headache and eyes swollen.
tml going back sec sch take cert bah.
go back see see hw sec sch look lyk le.
meeting snow, jiawei and jenny go take cert.
after tat go orchid meet mye audi cpl.
mayb samsam di oso come along :D
befor iie end mye diary.
iie jus wan let vincent know hw much ilovehim.
nw first place in mye heart iish vincent.
hope time can prove tat iie seriously love eu alot.
if iie nt wrong, sure somethings has happen.
but he dont wan tel me wad iish happening.
hmmms..tis time dont know need hw long to recover le.
when eu need me, jus give me a call or a msg.
i'll be there for eu anytime de <3

2day wont be updating any pic.
cos using lappy. most of mye pic at mye destop.
tml or wed dhen update more pic :D

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